Plans Change

photo by Holly Aprecio Photography

photo by Holly Aprecio Photography

I'm so glad you've found yourself here on Society Letters. As one of the contributors to this blog, I plan on bringing you thoughtful insight into my world as a stay at home mom, a wife learning to relinquish control, and an obsessive creative trying to be original in a Pinterest world. I feel honored to be part of a group of women ready to share their talents, dreams, and life experiences. This is your personal invitation into my home and a glimpse into my life. Don't get me wrong here. Just because you see me here putting my best foot forward doesn't mean I am an expert at any of this. I learn new things about myself as a mother and a woman every day. When I became a mom at 24, I found myself on all the mommy blogs searching for answers from other women who were going through the same struggles I went through. New challenges arise daily as my kids grow. I have found encouragement from other mothers who have come before me and shared their experiences, and now I would like to return the favor. Hopefully my experiences, triumphs and failures will comfort or encourage you, make you laugh, and remind you that life is a lesson and at some moments we are the teachers and other times we are the students. 

photo by Holly Aprecio Photography

photo by Holly Aprecio Photography

I will give you a brief history of my story and how I came to be a contributor for Society Letters. Right after I had my second baby at the age of 27, we were at a place where I could stay home and be with our two small children. I had hopes to go back to work eventually to not only have two steady incomes again but also because I like putting my skills and talents to good use in the professional world. When my little one was just five months old, we came across some unexpected news. I was pregnant. In that moment, I was so terrified. I still had a little baby not even crawling yet or eating solid foods and here I was about to make him a BIG brother! With three little ones not old enough to go to school, my plans of going back to work changed and my new job title was now and still is "that crazy mom trying to juggle her three kids under 5 years old." The three of them are the whole reason I feel placed on this earth. They are my joy and my delight. There are challenging days, sleepless nights, and moments of begging God for the skills and grace to somehow raise them without complexes! Before kids, I never saw my future self and thought "stay-at-home-mom". I had no ill feelings about women who did, it just wasn't in my plan. I saw myself running a company. Being my own boss. But my plan wasn't God's plan. There are days I am so proud of who I am as a mother and that I have successfully kept them all alive and happy. Other days, I am ridden with guilt and disgust that I got upset over something so small in retrospect. I think I have literally cried over spilt milk at some point. Hey, you pumping mothers know exactly what I'm talking about. I am here, just taking this day by day, moment by moment. 

photo by Jon Kaplan Photography

photo by Jon Kaplan Photography

After a year or so of being at home (see: terrified to leave the house with three children), my awareness of the appearance of my home really started to settle in. I've always considered myself a very creative person but at that time, I hadn't honed in on my creative skills in our own home yet. I started following some talented women on Instagram who specialized in interior design. I thought, "well I could try something like that". I started my own account specifically for documenting my design efforts and finding inspiration from other women doing the same. When I got my first 10 followers, I immediately thought, "ha! these people are accidentally following me". But then a few more people started trickling in and chatting with me and eventually I felt like I had myself a mini circle of friends who enjoyed the same things I did. I'm no home decor professional and by no means do I have a large following, but the people I have met through the Instagram community truly have made a difference in my life. Their encouraging words and affirmation has given me the confidence to explore a new plan for my future. Maybe I can be a kickass stay-at-home-mom AND blogger. Maybe a home decorator. Maybe a DIY-er. Who knows where I am going and what is in my future! Maybe it's leading me to something bigger and better than I could have imagined for myself. This is just the beginning. God has a funny way of opening your eyes to things you never thought possible for yourself. I feel honored you've stuck it out with me and made it to the end of this letter. I hope you stay along for the ride and hope to chat with you again here at Society Letters.